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Showing posts with label NYE. Show all posts
Showing posts with label NYE. Show all posts

Tuesday, 31 December 2013

The Last Blog Of 2013...(Unless I'm Emotional And Drunk Before Midnight)

Hello you beautiful birdies-yes...you...the one staring at the screen..

This is my last entry of 2013-unless I get drunk and emotional before midnight (high probability)

We had my Mum's cousin, M, pop in. She lives in Machester and grew up with Mum in Glasgow and owns one of the top Irish dancing schools in the world. She is hilarious, eccentric and dramatic, we love her. And she loves Mum-she turned up on Mum's doorstep last year after going through a rather colorful event in her marriage and stayed with Mum for months. M has never forgotten my mother's unending kindness.

We discussed family secrets, family stories that were never meant to be told and tales of our large sprawling Irish family.
The spontaneity is not usually welcomed by Mum these days,but I'm glad M ignored it and came anyway. Mum needed it.

My Aunt and Uncle will be coming over soon for drinks and parlor games (they're in the 70's) and my brother is calling at midnight our time from LA.

This year has been a life shattering one as I discussed in my previous scribblings. Many dreams have come true (The Emmy's, shooting the pilots) and nightmares have become a reality (the reason I am writing this blog) 

I want to say a massive THANK YOU to you reading this. By you reading these words, leaving me comments, sending me notes, I have a reason to get up; something to look forward to and to write. 
Please continue to follow me on this journey, I promise it will not be boring (!)

I never lose faith,I truly mean that. Please understand that that declaration is rooted in astonishment and utterly void of arrogance. This is perhaps because I think I may be mad with delusions, but good things will happen next year; I will cope with the nightmares and live the dream.



Monday, 30 December 2013

NYE Every Day

Call me a little slow, but only today did I realize that 2014 is a mere day away.

2013 has been a year that has found me letting go of my stable, (well tipped) position managing a restaurant in Beverly Hills to concentrate on acting full time, landed some great roles, filmed several pilots, partied, loved and laughed a lot. 

Everything became very still and very silent when I heard the news that my Mum had brain cancer and I was to return home and care for her full time.

I am not dreading tomorrow night, or the constant reminders that we should be out having FUN, but the anticipation of it all. I really have never enjoyed NYE, I tried to, I really have,but there is so much build up and pressure to make it an amazing night and that the night shall foretell the year to come.

We shall be going over to my Aunt and Uncle's for New Year's Day for dinner and celebration but NYE will be myself and my Mum in her house and I want to go to bed early, not pretend either of us have plans or hopes or goals for next year. 
We will be happy that we have that day, that night together and tomorrow is a gift. 

No New Year's Eve celebration will compare to the happiness that right now I still have my Mum with me right now.